Musings from a liberally conserative, extroverted introvert, optimistic pessimist, idealistic realist
SH80's Articles In Life Journals
July 20, 2008 by SH80
I’ve spent the morning trying not to feel my feelings. My feelings hurt.  I put down my guitar and broke down after playing the song, It’s Been A While, by Staind. If I had to pick a favorite song, it would be my choice. A stanza within the lyrics speaks to me each time I hear it whether from the voice of the band or from my own utterance…             “And everything I can’t remember   ...
June 8, 2008 by SH80
Does God really care? I find myself at a crossroads in life [professionally], in which I want to know if God is truly interested. In our quiet time together this morning, my wife read to me an excerpt in which the author wrestled with this very question. Is He interested in me personally? Or is He busy with “real” problems? My issue is nominal next to people in foreign countries who wonder if they will eat today, who wonder if they will be murdered by insurgents, who wonder if they w...
April 23, 2008 by SH80
Right now, my insides feel like the computer desktop screensaver with the pipes that twist and turn at all angles in a breakneck pace. While I stare blankly at the onscreen pipes that overwhelm my senses, my innards twist and flail with contradictory feelings that overcome my sensibilities. I’m trying to understand my feelings but keeping pace with the thoughts that come and go is difficult. I’ve always thought of myself as a living contradiction in terms…an idealistic realist...